Archive for December 2009

Merry Your Christmas!   2 comments

Merry your Christmas! Can I use merry as a verb? Attach merriment to your holiday! Inject it! Frost your Christmastime with it just like the awesome white frosting on the funfetti cupcakes at work yesterday!

I am really starting to believe that joy (also happiness, merriment, contentment) is in the mindset. What is Christmas to you? I was driving to Wegmans and thinking about all the reasons why the next few days could be miserable for so many people I know. I realized that for Timmy and Chris the next many Christmases have the potential to be terrible. Saturday Dec. 26, two days from now, they are probably pulling the plug on their grandma’s ventilator. So they get the 23rd thru the morning of the 26th to contemplate life without the one who raised them and has been housing them all their life. Every Christmas will now be a reminder of her and how she isn’t here anymore. “Merry Christmas, remember your grandma?” That is a reality for many of us in our own way.

I thought about how this holiday was hard on so many people. I thought about how many parents must be miserable because they can’t give their kids anything for Christmas, and how many kids don’t get anything while their friends do. Then it hit me like a hockey puck. (I got hit in the ankle last night by a puck. Sorry but I have to keep it real. Insert your own analogy!) We all talk about how we hate how commercial Christmas is. That’s just part of it. I started to think about why we ALL could be happy. Merry. Chris and Timmy were given a gift in their grandma. She is a christian. What I mean is that she has acknowledged that the God who created all loves her and has made a way for her to be with Him in heaven when she is done on this earth. Her time has come. She is leaving the pain, the hurt, the misery of cold and loneliness, the agony of this life with all of it’s losses and discomforts for eternal comfort. Timmy and Chris get to know that and find relief from their grief in that knowledge. We can ALL find relief in that thought both for our losses but also in the hope we have in the Son of God who was born, lived like us with all of our cares and hurts, and died for no deserved reason except that it was His will to give Himself as a sacrifice for us. Unto us a child is born. Unto us a Savior is given. We are saved. We are given hope. Not a hope in what might happen, but hope in what is going to happen.

Bad things happen to both good and bad people because bad things happen. I have found myself questioning the love and care of the God I believe in purely based upon what kind of things and comforts I have. The reality of the situation is that my soul was saved and is assured for all eternity. All I have to do is endure for a short time here. Endure. Please endure. How utterly short sighted we are when we fix our eyes on the things that surround us, when we wallow in the grief that holds us for as long as we let it. Bad things happen. Pain happens. It is foolish to think that any one of us can be exempt from the pains of life and death.Tim and Chris will hurt. It is a reasonable response. I hope I can be there to help and offer hope while confusion and grief clouds reason.

Lift your eyes to the horizon that is approaching fast and see what lies beyond. Life is but a breath and then it is gone. Eternity waits to have us either with joy or pain. Mine is a future of joy, and so I am merry:) May your Christmas be too. Let it be.



Posted December 24, 2009 by john b in Uncategorized

Choose who you shall serve   Leave a comment

Oct. 5, 2009.  A very dear little baby died Friday night…

9 days old, precious and miraculous. You are amazing. Your birth was a miracle and was known by the Father before your parent’s parent’s births. The Father knew your days, and when the time came He took you from your flawed body and held you close. You are never to feel pain again, passing time as a night passes in sleep like the blink of an eye, until your earthly parents greet you again when time is not, and what is- is yours to enjoy with them forever. We will see you again. I envy you:)


Little accident, you were here for a short while. An accident born of 2 adult accidents. Their life is meaningless and so was yours. Life is an accident. What matter is it that it be 9 days or 90 years? I envy you. We all envy you. We have no hope for we are here for no reason. So, we take what we can and enjoy what can be enjoyed until we die. We educate ourselves to make money to ease our discomfort. We chase comfort and happiness and leave the lives of those we use in our wake. Our life is the pursuit of purpose spent trying to ignore the grave that awaits wherein we return to dust and are no more. There is no hope for there is no future, or past, and the present is without purpose other than that which we concoct with our pitiful reasoning. You are to be envied for you will not have to experience this meaningless painful life.

Choose hope, or choose hopelessness.

If you cannot abandon your mind and the struggles inside it (that is, to understand), you cannot experience the peace of your mind renewed with knowing that which exceeds understanding. Believing is seeing.

Posted December 18, 2009 by john b in Uncategorized